no_more_voices

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 06:06:42 GMT

i feel as if it has finally come to an end
idont want this to happen
but it cant be stopped
ive tried my best
i can only do so much
i need attention too
need me too

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 21:47:22 GMT

back from florida
craziest trip ever

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 01:22:09 GMT

so i was watching rounders
and i turned it off at the scene where his gf left him and they just randomly decide to go to ac
well i slept on that and woke up saturday and wanted to go to florida
so
im going to florida
in about 6 hours
200 bucks round trip
this is the most spontanious thing ive ever done

Thu, 19 May 2005 03:30:31 GMT

2 hillside residents accused of having drugs in schhool zone

an 18 yearold student(ray "buddha" horn) and a 20 yearold hillside resident (charles coles) were arrested on drug charges after police caught them with crack cocaine, authorities said yesterday. raymond horn, 18, of sandford ave and charles coles, 20, of munn ave were arrested just after 3:10 p.m. friday, chief robert quinlan said. both had been under surveillance for some time, he said. quinlan said ray horn was leaving school and charles was there to meet him. they were arrested as the two approached a car. authroities believe the suspects were selling the drugs out of the car. twenty vials of crack cocaine were seized from the vehicle. both suspects were charged with posession of a controlled substance with intent to distribute in a school zone. they were sent to the union county jail in elizabeth and are being held on 10,000 dolar bail each.

Mon, 09 May 2005 02:42:45 GMT

Im Back!!!!
i got reason reinstalled
wow it feels good
my passion is back

Sun, 01 May 2005 18:24:40 GMT

what a crappy weekend

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 16:14:36 GMT

i watched requiem for a dream again last night
3rd time
i have yet to watch that movie and not get completly disturbed
its such a deep movie

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:41:28 GMT

its st pattys day
tonight i drink to the girls with no heart
may you live a long life

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 04:27:04 GMT

just when you think you have someones trust
and youre totally connected with them
something not so safe comes along

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 03:37:31 GMT

there comes a time when a family become nothing more than people who live in the same house and share a last name. there also comes a time when a person has truly given up on life, checked out if you will, and becomes nothing more than a hollow shell, just a man in life who tried to make his mark but failed and has just given up hope.
a point where anything he touched falls apart and he realises he is just making things worse when he tries to help.
what is a man to do when he has reached this point
should he try tp pursue other venues maybe try new things, spice up his life, and risk failure for another time, or just forget about the who and what's about life.

ive tried to stay optimistic but its tough in a world of vampires and leaches.
every dream you have gets shot down.
stabbed in the back, punched in the face ive got it all.
and the pilot screams
mayday mayday
this flights going down.
the engines are shot, its such a terrible sound.
i havent lived my life to its full potential.
and now its over in the blink of an eye.
please tell my wife and kids i said good bye.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 05:16:00 GMT

ive decided to break away from my usualy depressing side of things and concentrate on the good
well some of the good
my stomach is killing me
i havent eatin a full meal in forever
and my back is so sore
id kill for a massage
now back to life -
i cant really complain right now
yes my car is broken n my progress report is gonna suck
but eh
its just a progress report
i mean i have the worlds greatest bestfriend - brit
an amazing group of friends who im really starting to connect with
no more antisocial me
a gorgeous prom date
who i need to talk to alot more
shynesssss
n just a love for music thats been taking me over
im starting an exercise routine now with my man ian
n my muscles really takin shape
which is a plus
and just to cap it all off
a great job as of now which is just amazing
cuz theres always people to talk to
nat,maggy, patty, steve n of course brit whn she shows up
ok well thats my longest entry in a while
dont expect another one soon
so enjoy

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 21:46:37 GMT

chill

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 02:21:39 GMT

last couple of days have been tough
seen alot of things that have brought back some memories
im trying so hard to let go and move on but i cant
i had a really strange dream last night
like really strange stuff i shouldnt been thinking of
stuff i would never do in reality
i want to see the future
just see how things will turn out
im such a dreamer it sucks

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 04:16:03 GMT

the last couple of days have been days of reflection for me
ive come to realize what is important in my life and what isnt
it all started when i was watching the columbine highschool shooting documentary
just to see how precious and short life can be
i just thought about my life
who is in it, whats missing, what i want, my inner desires
than new years - a typical new years
just spent it with fam n fam friends
brit called n i was sposed to go chill with her all night but she got sick
after new years i stayed up all night watching cheesy infomercials because nothing was on
i decided i was up so what the fuck
i went to conant and watched the sun rise
its sucha asimple thing but can bring so much joy to one person
it also made me think of hillside
and my hatred which may not be hatred but love
if everyone hates this town than why does everyone get excited when its talked about
example you can have a discussion about how much you hate hillside with a hillsideian
but if you watch garden state and that line " down by the corner of hillside and newark" everyone gets so excited like "woa thats my town, yea go hilside"
thats how i was
and sitting in conant i realized maybe hillside isnt so bad
ive loved here ive lost here ive been beaten up here ive beaten someone up here
i learned to driveo n these streets i met some of my best friends in this town and ive had some of my greatest moments for the town baseball team
so maybe i dont hate it but subconciously ive been in love with it my entire life
hillside my first love affair

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 03:21:11 GMT

you ever know everything youre going to write in your lj
but than you get to this white screen and have no clue what to write
that is what hapens to me all the time
im so tired and sick
it sucks so much
i wish i could just like perk up a little
and just be happy for a few you know
ive been thinking alot about a person
who i like but i still dont know what to do
i havent really talked to her and i feel bad
oh well
ryans house was kick ass

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 05:31:05 GMT

the thing i miss most is a sweet embrace

i hate westfield

i got an ipod for christmas
really nice i like it alot

gave all my gifts out wed
think it went well ryan seemed to like his, tom seemed to like his as well, iono bout mark, cristin knew what i was getting her

my band is getting back together "written in red"
i love music

ive taken 300 pics
thanks to everyone who put up with me

i dont know how to put them on lj
someone should help me out with that

ketherine wanted me to update
so i am
she is such a good friend

im still crusing hard on one girl
i hate myself for this
the embarassment i feel, anxiety, horror, grief
but i think she is relly beautiful

its 12:38 christmas day
techicnally not christmas anymore
doesnt seem real

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 03:00:31 GMT

i realized i have a really nice camera
and i got it last chritmas and have taken maybe 20 pics
so from now on i will be extremly obnoxious with my camera
if you know me than i will be taking pictures of you
but i figure i want to get my moneys worth

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 01:56:34 GMT

i am intimidated by beautiful woman
if i have one little crush i can barely make eye contact

i am jealous of everything thing
i have no selfesteem

"this is for the ones who hang there head low"
i put myself in that catagory

"need a warm embrace, a place to rest my mind"
i wish i could talk to her

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 05:24:49 GMT

ouch
forgot the birthday
im in touble

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 02:14:30 GMT

ive come to conclusion scoth plains cops do not care
i was driving down a 25 going 55 and i cut this cop off
after realizing he was a cop i said "shit"
and prepared to get pilled over
but of course nothing
he didnt tailgate me or anything at all

things been iffy in my life
hope they get better
i miss people

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 19:36:42 GMT

bored so ill update
thinking of changing my picture
my hair isnt that long
but it soon shall be again
i dont care who doesnt like it
such a bland couple of days
rain
boredem
im in a state between a coma and an erection
band fell apart
sucks
no more rockfest:(
work become blah
burnt out already
if anyone drowns ill just say
fukit and they can save themselves
too much extra shifts to pick up
so glad i dun have to get up at 5 everysat to open
things been so confussing latly
like random things that bother my life
going on ski trip thus year
heard its an amazing time
gonna rent sum boards wit wallace wen he goes
ok well bordem is still relevant and wont fo away
bye for now

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 17:01:44 GMT

wow that clown story is really getting around
ive heard it from so many people
thats funny

other news report cards came in and i almost died
now i was expecting it to be somewhat good cuz im actually doing work this year
so good for me usually is like a couple of c's a b n sum a's in frio's classes
but i open it and expect another disappointing card
BUT NO
A,A,A,A,A,B+,B+
holy crap .. like a 3.85 gpa
oh n i moved up in math
no more remedial for me!!!!!!
sooo souped over this whole school year
still no letters of recomandation
but ima ask frio n mariano(cuz mariano went to shu)

and i can never make it home on time
whenever i have a 1130 curfew im always home at 1215
mostly cuz im driving ryan home
but ehhh i dun mind at all

peace

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 02:08:21 GMT

heard this story from a girl at work
pretty crazy ... true story

so a mom and dad finally decide to go out for the night, but their children beg them not to go
"why not" they ask.
"because the clown stands in our room and watches us sleep.
the parents laugh it off and tell them to not watch anymore scary movies. she also tells them to stop having midnight snakcs because food is magically dissappearing. so they call a babysitter(the girl from works friend) and tell her they will be late. so the babysitter does her babysitting and gives the kids food and sends them off to bed. they beg her not to let them go but she has to. so she goes into the basement where the tv is located.she notices a weird clown statue in the corner facing the stairs as if watching you come down. so she goes down there and calls the parents to ask if she can order a movie. they say yes of course. she looks back over and sees the clown statue had turned 90 degrees and is now facing her again. she realizes this is what the kids were afraid of and laughs. just before the end of the convo she also asks the parents if she can put a cover on this weird clown statue.
"we dont have a clown statue"the mother replies
"yea you do in the corner"
knowing very well that the family did not have a clown statue in the house she demands the babysitter gets the children out of the house and to call 911.
the babysitter a little freaked does what shes told.so they call the cops and wait for the parents.
what the parents soon learn is that a schizophrenic midget has been living in their house for the past week. watching the entire family sleep.

crazy i know. i thought it was fake till i saw the article ill try n get it

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 02:38:37 GMT

...Apathy is for Lovers...

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 01:53:57 GMT

well things have been getting alot better
chilling with mark n tom
we tped zoll's house pretty damn good
like extremly good
been jammin alot in school too
me tom kenny mr bruno n frio all jammed fer like 2 hours today
pretty awesome
finally getting pretty good with my improve on bass
uh sat going to mall/movies wit cristin mark tom kelly wallace n janette
if anyone went to a.p.morris wit me youd remeber her .. she moved like a while ago its weird how small of a world it is
on other news time to cut her off slowly