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[12 Jul 2005|02:05am] |
i feel as if it has finally come to an end
idont want this to happen
but it cant be stopped
ive tried my best
i can only do so much
i need attention too
need me too
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[23 Jun 2005|05:46pm] |
back from florida
craziest trip ever
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[12 Jun 2005|09:20pm] |
so i was watching rounders
and i turned it off at the scene where his gf left him and they just randomly decide to go to ac
well i slept on that and woke up saturday and wanted to go to florida
so
im going to florida
in about 6 hours
200 bucks round trip
this is the most spontanious thing ive ever done
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[18 May 2005|11:27pm] |
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2 hillside residents accused of having drugs in schhool zone
an 18 yearold student(ray "buddha" horn) and a 20 yearold hillside resident (charles coles) were arrested on drug charges after police caught them with crack cocaine, authorities said yesterday. raymond horn, 18, of sandford ave and charles coles, 20, of munn ave were arrested just after 3:10 p.m. friday, chief robert quinlan said. both had been under surveillance for some time, he said. quinlan said ray horn was leaving school and charles was there to meet him. they were arrested as the two approached a car. authroities believe the suspects were selling the drugs out of the car. twenty vials of crack cocaine were seized from the vehicle. both suspects were charged with posession of a controlled substance with intent to distribute in a school zone. they were sent to the union county jail in elizabeth and are being held on 10,000 dolar bail each.
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[08 May 2005|10:41pm] |
Im Back!!!!
i got reason reinstalled
wow it feels good
my passion is back
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[01 May 2005|02:24pm] |
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what a crappy weekend
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[24 Mar 2005|11:13am] |
i watched requiem for a dream again last night
3rd time
i have yet to watch that movie and not get completly disturbed
its such a deep movie
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[17 Mar 2005|10:48pm] |
its st pattys day
tonight i drink to the girls with no heart
may you live a long life
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[16 Mar 2005|11:24pm] |
just when you think you have someones trust
and youre totally connected with them
something not so safe comes along
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[07 Mar 2005|10:28pm] |
there comes a time when a family become nothing more than people who live in the same house and share a last name. there also comes a time when a person has truly given up on life, checked out if you will, and becomes nothing more than a hollow shell, just a man in life who tried to make his mark but failed and has just given up hope.
a point where anything he touched falls apart and he realises he is just making things worse when he tries to help.
what is a man to do when he has reached this point
should he try tp pursue other venues maybe try new things, spice up his life, and risk failure for another time, or just forget about the who and what's about life.
ive tried to stay optimistic but its tough in a world of vampires and leaches.
every dream you have gets shot down.
stabbed in the back, punched in the face ive got it all.
and the pilot screams
mayday mayday
this flights going down.
the engines are shot, its such a terrible sound.
i havent lived my life to its full potential.
and now its over in the blink of an eye.
please tell my wife and kids i said good bye.
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[02 Mar 2005|12:16am] |
ive decided to break away from my usualy depressing side of things and concentrate on the good
well some of the good
my stomach is killing me
i havent eatin a full meal in forever
and my back is so sore
id kill for a massage
now back to life -
i cant really complain right now
yes my car is broken n my progress report is gonna suck
but eh
its just a progress report
i mean i have the worlds greatest bestfriend - brit
an amazing group of friends who im really starting to connect with
no more antisocial me
a gorgeous prom date
who i need to talk to alot more
shynesssss
n just a love for music thats been taking me over
im starting an exercise routine now with my man ian
n my muscles really takin shape
which is a plus
and just to cap it all off
a great job as of now which is just amazing
cuz theres always people to talk to
nat,maggy, patty, steve n of course brit whn she shows up
ok well thats my longest entry in a while
dont expect another one soon
so enjoy
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[13 Feb 2005|04:54pm] |
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chill
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[27 Jan 2005|09:17pm] |
last couple of days have been tough
seen alot of things that have brought back some memories
im trying so hard to let go and move on but i cant
i had a really strange dream last night
like really strange stuff i shouldnt been thinking of
stuff i would never do in reality
i want to see the future
just see how things will turn out
im such a dreamer it sucks
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[01 Jan 2005|11:14pm] |
the last couple of days have been days of reflection for me
ive come to realize what is important in my life and what isnt
it all started when i was watching the columbine highschool shooting documentary
just to see how precious and short life can be
i just thought about my life
who is in it, whats missing, what i want, my inner desires
than new years - a typical new years
just spent it with fam n fam friends
brit called n i was sposed to go chill with her all night but she got sick
after new years i stayed up all night watching cheesy infomercials because nothing was on
i decided i was up so what the fuck
i went to conant and watched the sun rise
its sucha asimple thing but can bring so much joy to one person
it also made me think of hillside
and my hatred which may not be hatred but love
if everyone hates this town than why does everyone get excited when its talked about
example you can have a discussion about how much you hate hillside with a hillsideian
but if you watch garden state and that line " down by the corner of hillside and newark" everyone gets so excited like "woa thats my town, yea go hilside"
thats how i was
and sitting in conant i realized maybe hillside isnt so bad
ive loved here ive lost here ive been beaten up here ive beaten someone up here
i learned to driveo n these streets i met some of my best friends in this town and ive had some of my greatest moments for the town baseball team
so maybe i dont hate it but subconciously ive been in love with it my entire life
hillside my first love affair
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[30 Dec 2004|10:26pm] |
you ever know everything youre going to write in your lj
but than you get to this white screen and have no clue what to write
that is what hapens to me all the time
im so tired and sick
it sucks so much
i wish i could just like perk up a little
and just be happy for a few you know
ive been thinking alot about a person
who i like but i still dont know what to do
i havent really talked to her and i feel bad
oh well
ryans house was kick ass
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[26 Dec 2004|12:31am] |
the thing i miss most is a sweet embrace
i hate westfield
i got an ipod for christmas
really nice i like it alot
gave all my gifts out wed
think it went well ryan seemed to like his, tom seemed to like his as well, iono bout mark, cristin knew what i was getting her
my band is getting back together "written in red"
i love music
ive taken 300 pics
thanks to everyone who put up with me
i dont know how to put them on lj
someone should help me out with that
ketherine wanted me to update
so i am
she is such a good friend
im still crusing hard on one girl
i hate myself for this
the embarassment i feel, anxiety, horror, grief
but i think she is relly beautiful
its 12:38 christmas day
techicnally not christmas anymore
doesnt seem real
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[09 Dec 2004|10:08pm] |
i realized i have a really nice camera
and i got it last chritmas and have taken maybe 20 pics
so from now on i will be extremly obnoxious with my camera
if you know me than i will be taking pictures of you
but i figure i want to get my moneys worth
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[01 Dec 2004|09:01pm] |
i am intimidated by beautiful woman
if i have one little crush i can barely make eye contact
i am jealous of everything thing
i have no selfesteem
"this is for the ones who hang there head low"
i put myself in that catagory
"need a warm embrace, a place to rest my mind"
i wish i could talk to her
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[28 Nov 2004|12:33am] |
ouch
forgot the birthday
im in touble
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[26 Nov 2004|09:22pm] |
ive come to conclusion scoth plains cops do not care
i was driving down a 25 going 55 and i cut this cop off
after realizing he was a cop i said "shit"
and prepared to get pilled over
but of course nothing
he didnt tailgate me or anything at all
things been iffy in my life
hope they get better
i miss people
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